God has been teaching me so much recently. I've had a migraine for 5 days and counting now, and at first, I was kind of frustrated with the whole thing. Actually, I'm still not enjoying it. But God has used it to teach me stuff I couldn't have learned otherwise. At first, I was complaining. "Why did this happen to me?" "Why THIS week?" "Doesn't God know i have a ton of stuff to do?" etc. Then i turned it towards God. "Why did you allow this into my life this week? Don't you realize that I'm a college student? Don't you know I'm really busy right now?" I figured that blaming God or complaining to Him would do know God. So I tried to step back and think (not easy when your head is a mine field--primed for explosion). What could I learn from this? What could God be trying to teach me? Because whatever it was, i wanted to learn it really fast so I could get the headache gone. I prayed about it for a while, and came up with a conclusion. This whole semester has been primarily about me. Me working in my own strength. Me doing what I needed to do. Me totally not depending on God to get me through and be my strength. So what does He do? God sends something into my life that should physically speaking, knock me off my feet. He sends a killer headache, the likes of which I have not experienced in quite a long time. If I had my way, I would stay in bed all day sleeping, with the lights off. Not worrying about homework that was due or helping that person with their homework. Unfortunatly, I'm a college student, and I don't have that option. If I stayed in bed for a week, i would fall so far behind, i would never catch up.
The only option I have is to rely on God's strength. It is physically impossible for me to do all that I have been doing recently. I have been amazed time and time again this week at how much God has allowed me to get done. There is no way I could have done it. Not in my own strength. If I can do this when I feel absolutly miserable and rotten, think what I could get done when I'm not relying on my own strength. I serve an amazing God. I serve a powerful God. And I can rely on His strength when I have none of my own. Even when I feel like I have strength, i can still rely on His.
Praise the Lord!
II Corinthians 12:9--And He said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee, for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore, will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.